If I could...

I have been having one of those months... a month that makes me love everything about my life right now...

I am loving my husband working for himself. He seems to be so much more satisfied with his outlook on life. He is a happier person, which means I am a happier person. He loves getting up with me, taking the boys to school and doing what he wants when he wants. It's the first time in 5 years I have seen him like this. He is now the man I married... and I love this!

My kids are doing great... and growing up like weeds. I wish I could press pause on this right now...

And the Arizona weather is at that absolutely beautiful point that I wish nobody knew about... it would keep out the snowbirds.

But the problem with loving my life right now is I start wondering what I would do "if I could". If I could drop everything... if I could move away... if I could go back in time/jump forward in time/pause time. If I could eat anything/make anything/do anything.

If I could change things outside of my control.

Sometimes I wonder about life's double edged swords. About the walls we build around ourselves and the people we surround ourselves by. The actions that we take that define who we are. And the action that the people we surround ourselves by also take... which I think further define who we are.

While I don't live with regrets... I am wondering how I will change my tomorrow so that I can not wonder about how things could be different. I want deeper friendships, richer experiences, and more memorable tomorrows. I want to do things just because. I want to miss opening weekends at the theatres and make new traditions. I want to laugh more and give love more freely.

I want to live like a child.

If I could, I'd do it all today.

Eat This, Not That

We decided to get started with potty training last week. And as any parent who has been there before knows, sometimes you promise things you can't deliver on just to get them to do what needs to be done.

Nobody told me that they will remember every.little.promise.

And after 2 days of asking, we made cupcakes yesterday. With sprinkles. Even though the kid is still wearing diapers.Trying to pick my battles here...

So, I was making up the cupcakes and luck would have it that I only had enough paper liners to make 12 regular sized cupcakes... but I had tons of mini liners for mini cakes... so I ended up with 12 regular cupcakes and 24 mini cupcakes. Which actually made me happy because I did the math...

Regular Sized cupcake with "normal" amount of frosting: 225 calories, 6.75g fat... 5 Weight Watchers points.
Mini Cupcake with 1 teaspoon frosting (plenty for a tiny cake!): 79 calories, 1.7g fat.... 2 Weight Watchers points!

So... have 2 mini cupcakes... I won't tell! It totally satisfies your sweet tooth and you won't be too bummed out after all!

Next time, I'm gonna swap out some of the ingredients and see if I can come up with a yummy cupcake with even less calories. I don't drink diet sodas, so the typical 1 can soda, 1 box mix thing is no good... but we'll figure out something! :o)